Weird weekend

1) J got married on Saturday! And it was a teary affair the afternoon before. We hugged, teared and she thanked me for being her friend and apologized for not having been there for me much these past few years. We had been growing distant and I had been sad about that. It touched me that she knew and cared enough to tell me how much I still mean to her.

2) L came by to talk to me at the wedding dinner and I cannot fathom why I dated him for a full 18 months and even believed I loved him. Thankfully, I never once declared him to be a great love and I always felt that he never occupied my heart the same way others have or had. But seriously, we have zero things in common. He asked me to keep in touch, which I nodded my head to. But why?? I mean, I don't hate him one bit. In fact, I'm glad that things are great for him. It's just that I have zero interest in him, even as a person. Oh dear. An ex-boyfriend whom I now feel the same way about as any stranger on the street. I feel almost heartless here, but I did have a tinge of guilt seeing him walk away disappointed.

3) Never underestimate the power of a killer dress and curls. Seriously. I don't know why I had so much male attention at the dinner. Men are so superficial. Although, I was incredibly pleased when M (yes, that M that I was majorly pining for last year) suggested that we meet up for dinner soon as we kissed goodbye. I know it can't be the killer dress 'cause he was around the entire wedding weekend, including Friday rehearsal when I turned up looking worse for wear after a late-night fight with JC, and he was very sweet on me. Hurm... but he's dating someone else now... Men... tsk tsk.... You ignore them and they just can't get enough of you. But then again, it's M! He's on this year's "50 men we love" list on a local magazine. No way I'll say no to dinner.

4) I got into a fight with JC. It was senseless. It was frustrating. I do not feel guilty about expressing how I feel. It is who I am. Plus I spoke the truth. However, I do feel guilty about saying some things there were definitely not my place to say. But it doesn't matter. I should not have said anything because friendship is given, not taken. I cannot take what I'm not given.